not who you'd expect.

Sharda

my most recent work.

 nowadays i'd rather listen to the rain and thunder.

music is empty.

saltwater.

 

j'aime Saltwater par Chicane

éveille en moi une telle réaction émotionnelletout ce que j'ai toujours cherché, c'est la connexion et l'amourmais il y a tant de choses qui me manquaient juste devant moiles souvenirsla merle rirela famillela beautéles insectesla viele mondetout est devant moil'artplus de couleur plus de beautéla vie est déjà bellevous n'avez pas besoin de la chercher ailleurs

undenied poetry

 i am currently writing a second poetry book, called undenied poetry.

i write sadistically because that is the true nature of man.

take it or leave it.

wasp factory

 the wasp factory

i've been reading this book for quite some time, now.. and the ways in which frank describes women is deeply intriguing. 

"We didn't want them to be smart, and to some extent their aggression and their intelligence went together. Of course, the rams are brighter, but even they are demeaned by the idiotic females they have to associate with and inseminate. The same principle applies to chickens and cows and almost anything we've been able to get our greedy, hungry hands on for long enough. It occasionally occurs to me that something the same might have happened to women but, attractive though the theory might be, I suspect I'm wrong."

in this instance, he is discussing sheeps, and how idiotic they are.. but they have just become a product of domestication, and he believes the same thing has happened to women overtime.

 

my favourite childhood film

labyrinth

i feel an oddly familiar sensation when i watch this movie

his eyes his face are illumined,

the resonance i feel to this is beyond anything else i've felt

i feel just like sarah, wondering through a huge maze

a little mouse scurrying along trying to figure out life and the world

the world 

revealing itself slowly

her eyes opening

to the dangers and reality of men

the way they really are

how they're portrayed in disney films

so far 

so inaccurate

from the realities

the perverse

that in time ive come to embrace

the perversities of life

the sadism of life

it's all welcomed

it's all to be embraced, funnily enough

yin and yang 

as sick as that may sound

it is life

life is sick

life is terribly, terribly, sadistic

unfortunately you must learn to embrace all sides and aspects of life

otherwise you'd be a fool

you'd be an absolute fool