nowadays i'd rather listen to the rain and thunder.

music is empty.

saltwater.

 

j'aime Saltwater par Chicane

éveille en moi une telle réaction émotionnelletout ce que j'ai toujours cherché, c'est la connexion et l'amourmais il y a tant de choses qui me manquaient juste devant moiles souvenirsla merle rirela famillela beautéles insectesla viele mondetout est devant moil'artplus de couleur plus de beautéla vie est déjà bellevous n'avez pas besoin de la chercher ailleurs

undenied poetry

 i am currently writing a second poetry book, called undenied poetry.

i write sadistically because that is the true nature of man.

take it or leave it.

wasp factory

 the wasp factory

i've been reading this book for quite some time, now.. and the ways in which frank describes women is deeply intriguing. 

"We didn't want them to be smart, and to some extent their aggression and their intelligence went together. Of course, the rams are brighter, but even they are demeaned by the idiotic females they have to associate with and inseminate. The same principle applies to chickens and cows and almost anything we've been able to get our greedy, hungry hands on for long enough. It occasionally occurs to me that something the same might have happened to women but, attractive though the theory might be, I suspect I'm wrong."

in this instance, he is discussing sheeps, and how idiotic they are.. but they have just become a product of domestication, and he believes the same thing has happened to women overtime.

 

my favourite childhood film

labyrinth

i feel an oddly familiar sensation when i watch this movie

his eyes his face are illumined,

the resonance i feel to this is beyond anything else i've felt

i feel just like sarah, wondering through a huge maze

a little mouse scurrying along trying to figure out life and the world

the world 

revealing itself slowly

her eyes opening

to the dangers and reality of men

the way they really are

how they're portrayed in disney films

so far 

so inaccurate

from the realities

the perverse

that in time ive come to embrace

the perversities of life

the sadism of life

it's all welcomed

it's all to be embraced, funnily enough

yin and yang 

as sick as that may sound

it is life

life is sick

life is terribly, terribly, sadistic

unfortunately you must learn to embrace all sides and aspects of life

otherwise you'd be a fool

you'd be an absolute fool

songs

 my favourite songs

 ☎✦♡♡☻❀✿❁❥⋆℉✾✧❣♥

chicane - saltwater

chicane - offshore

tears for fears - everyone wants to rule the world

she sells sanctuary - the cult

george michael - cowboys and angels

george michael - a different corner

george michael - a moment with you

george michael - jesus to a child

george michael - you have been loved

george michael - desafinado

george michael - careless whisper

george michael - one more try

his entire album , basically.

sam gellaitry - think i know

sam gellaitry - assumptions

u weren't here i really missed you - cult member

the temper trap - sweet disposition <3

labrinth - let the sun shine

it's your move - diana ross

drake - over my dead body ( chantal kreviazuk )

drake - find your love

drake - hold on we're going home

647 - partynextdoor

enya - carribean blue

enya - oricono flow

enya - storms in africa <3

frail love

callous cave

i sent flowers

all of my poems represent an event or a memory that has occurred in my life

the only way i felt i could portray them was through the medium of writing

 

 

this is one of my favourite cards of the wader-right deck,

it is something i feel i most resonate with

i struggled with judgement and i think we all do

we judge others for their cruelty, their bad behaviour

without stepping into their shoes

without seeing the world through their eyes

i believe we are all at different levels of consciousness

and as such, we view life differently

some are stuck in victimhood, well most are

we think we have a right to mistreat others

as is done unto us

"Do not repay anyone evil for evil. Be careful to do what is right in the eyes of everyone."
— Romans 12:17 (NIV)

first drafts

 

the first drafts of my book

i wrote these in a notebook i got a discount on from when i worked at the post office

part of the van gogh collection

 

my biscuit coloured eyes

 

i sometimes like to eat at Gails with my father - 

the only time i feel connected to him.

the outside

 but inside it's purgatory.

 

this song makes me think of all the trials and tribulations young men go through, it never really dawned on me much. i feel like since the past 2 days i've been able to feel things more 

career

i wanted to perhaps be a dentist, or a teacher. i like children , but I've found perhaps I will be neither, in the correct and almost byronic way anyway. i don't think it's insane to believe that one might fall out of the straight and narrow

poetry book

 my poetry book 

This is my poetry book, it's your 'typical' 19 year olds entrance into the adult world, carrying a lot of baggage with her.

the description is pretty ok I guess.